32 weeks pregnant | The struggle

The reason I've neglected my blog, YouTube,...life for the past couple of weeks is because I've been on the struggle bus.  It always seems to happen to me with each of my pregnancies when I hit that 30 week time and suddenly the pregnancy isn't as easy as it once was.  I have a very real lack of energy which is not only ridiculously frustrating but also makes me feel so guilty for not being the fun, energetic mother and wife I was only a few weeks earlier.

Of course in reality life is just continuing along almost the same as it always did, I still cook dinner every evening, keep the house clean, make sure the children are being educated and bathed, you know, all the usual stuff.  I suppose the only difference really is that it doesn't feel as easy as it once did.  I know this feeling is temporary and I only have to deal with it for another couple of months but when you're in the middle of feeling like that there's not much of a realistic perspective.

So now I have entered the 'waiting zone', just waiting and waiting and waiting for my baby to be born.  I'm not the most patient person in the world so I'm just longing to be closer to the end of this pregnancy now.

Yes I'm whining, I'm sorry!

The reason my pregnancy isn't so enjoyable after 30 weeks is not only because of lack of energy but also heartburn that goes on all day every day. It burns, it hurts.  And then there's my bowels, you don't even want to know!  Let's just say drinking a litre of prune juice has absolutely no affect on me whatsoever.  Nada.  Zip. 

I've put on 24 lbs now and feel like I'm the size of a small country, actually let's just make that a medium sized country.  I can not wait until I'm no longer carrying around all this extra weight.  Instead I'll be carrying my sweet baby boy in my arms.  I long for that moment.

Something that hasn't helped is we've had the builders round the past couple of weeks, replacing bedroom ceilings.  Goodbye Artex! It's just annoying trying to educate the children when they're so distracted by the comings and goings of the builders.  They've finished the ceilings now, so now I just have to look forward to windows being replaced and decorators doing their thing.  It's really made me feel like I just want to move to a new build, even though I can't stand them!

I saw the midwife last week and everything seems hunky dory, normal blood, urine, blood pressure, baby, everything's just peachy...apart from my attitude.

I apologise if you've actually taken the time to read this, I hope to be in a better mood next time.

There is a video of my pregnancy update below, although I wouldn't recommend it.